reasons i may be trans (ftm)

i kind of want to become a guy
i fantasised once about my mother telling me how i’ve grown up into such a cute boy
i sometimes fantasise about injecting t into myself
i look into the mirror and i almost see a guy (maybe im just delusional 😭)

reasons i may not be trans

im not dysphoric, im fine being a girl
i could just be deluding myself???
i would want to present femininely anyways, forgive me but my ideal self would be a femboy…
i would really hate facial hair on myself

now that i’ve written all that out, the chance of me being trans doesnt seem to be zero… though it kind of sucks because i wont be able to experiment with my gender presentation trans or not (e.g cant cut my hair or stuff like that due to circumstances) so i guess ill be stuck as a girl anyways haha

sorry for the incoherent rant