Well, you gotta know ahead of time, it's almost guaranteed you'll get denied and have to appeal. Likely, you'll have to follow the appeal process all the way to a hearing before a judge that will make the final decision.

You're going to be sent to doctors that want to get their job done fast rather than well, and usually end up giving the least beneficial report possible.

When it's a mental health thing, it is a grueling process, made more so by the fact of why you're applying in the first place. So you may well want to find a disability lawyer, despite the hassles and eventual cost. Even that doesn't guarantee success, but it can help

Society is sick not us.

I relate to this so much. not being able to operate in this bullshit system despite your best efforts. I'm still struggling just to complete the paperwork. it really seems like if you have an invisible disability it's impossible to get help sometimes.

the worst part for me was finding a job I actually really enjoyed and was good at only to watch it slowly slip away under the crushing pressure of constantly having to perform and appear normal.

second to last paragraph sound exactly like my experience. I'm so done with it all. thank you for taking the time to write all this, it's really validating to see someone else struggling with the same things.

Just trying to offer some different perspectives. I can see your a permanent victim and you cant take any accountability. Its ok to not have found what you want to do with the rest of your life. Dont give up you got this

Maybe try to find work you like to do and put more energy towards that. Keep your mind as busy as possible. By going on disability your going to have way more free time on your hands and way more struggles, you will rely on other people to survive. Just know your not fixing the problem and your probably making things worse.