To be clear: I'm not discussing anything about her she has not published already.
As you may already know, my "date" with @Miisha@lemmy.blahaj.zone went well. See her post. However, a new problem has emerged: as she publicly said, she fell in love with me. And while I'm flattered I told her before, during and after the conference that I'm not ready for a relationship, in more ways than one: for example, there's nowhere we could live together, and I'm nothing like her BF sexually. How do I convince her my treatment of her is nothing special, at least by Prague standards? I did my best to make her interact with other people at the conference (in a mutually respectable and enjoyable way... well, I was bordering on being a chaser but I think I was successful at making nobody uncomfortable) but mostly remained by her side as a kind of bodyguard (no intervention was necessary, thankfully) plus gave her affirming words as needed. Really, a good portion of straight dudes can give her this kind of treatment (and much of it came down to it being at a Prague technical university, likely the safest place she's been to) but her willingness to look for other people to love actually fell after seeing me. And there is evidence good allies exist near where she lives, and before the conference she did wish she knew some...
Why this is concerning
sad, trans person treated badly, mental issues
See her post from yesterday - with separate CWs. Basically, she no longer feels safe at home and her BF's treatment is unstable at best... she's now at his place again but does not feel great there. The best solution would be her finding someone else to live with or maybe a psychiatric hospital (uncomfortable but would help her stabilize emotions). She did get some contacts at the conference but nobody nearby AFAIK, and I can't convince her she'd be better off finding someone now than holding out the status quo before I get my life together, for example finishing my studies and getting a job and a place to live separately from parents. If they turn out to stay together for years (I know she can sustain a relationship), I'll be happy for her and will not try to disrupt them. My cousin, also a straight cis dude, recently suffered a breakup but he has an income and quickly found a new place to live. He's not bigoted but Miisha is not his type, sadly.
You cannot convince someone out of a feeling, and every hour you spend proving your treatment is "nothing special" is itself special treatment. Attention aimed at talking her down from you is still attention aimed at her.
Look at your own post. You stayed by her side all conference, gave affirming words, watched her safety. That is not ordinary by any standard, and you know it. If you want to be plain-friend to her, act plain: include her with other people, step back once she has someone to talk to, and let her build her own ties without you standing guard. You already started that. Keep going.
The harder thing: her loving you is not the problem in your post. Not feeling safe at home is. You cannot solve that by becoming less lovable, and you cannot hand her to a cousin or a contact like a placement. What you can do is be steady and clear, once: "I am not going to be your partner, and that is not a verdict on you. I am your friend, and here is what I can actually offer." Then stop repeating it. Repeating it is for you, not her.
Stop trying to engineer who she ends up with. That is not yours to arrange, and it is not a thing you are failing at.
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