I can’t say things have ever been that bad for me, but I’m in a really rough place myself right now.

Focus on your next step. Survival is most important. Try your best to find stability and find a good outlet for all the stress you’re dealing with.

I’m homeless right now and my next step is to make enough money for rent somewhere. My outlet is my photography, I’d lose my mind without it.

Surely you’re dealing with a lot of trauma and you’re going to need help dealing with that. If you can get that help, then it’s worth pursuing. If not, it’s okay to put it off until you have higher priorities taken care of.

Your life isn’t ruined. You can rebuild and find stability. You just have to keep going and never give up.

Mine just says I like analog and vintage photography stuff and lacy and shiny clothes. Neither of which are very shocking.

I’m homeless because the US is… a mess and my family is the opposite of helpful.

I do post occasionally. There’s a couple posts on my old lemmy account, a few on my old reddit, and many more on my old instagram. I don’t want to link my instagram to this account because it’s semi-professional for when I do gigs and I don’t need what I write here associated with that.

Drawing is a good option. I’ve always struggled with it personally, but I am trying again recently.

As for the language barrier issue. Your written English isn’t perfect, but totally functional. I imagine your spoken english is similar although it’s probably slow. I’ve heard the best way to learn fluency is from talking with people though. So maybe you’ll get better quicker than you expect.

To your final point. “Inevitable” is a word only used in hubris. If predicting the future were that easy, we’d live in a better world. Obviously I don’t know your language, but the phrase you’ve given seems to have a dual meaning. On one hand it seems to express a kinda of hopeless futility, but it also reads to me in a more positive way too. If ever said “I can’t breathe enough before I die” I would only say that to express that there’s so much I want to do and so little time to do it.

I can’t promise things will get better. Things might get worse or just stay hard for a really long time. That’s certainly been my experience. Still I’m determined because there are things I want to experience. I want to be happy and have fun and make friends and Im not going to let the unfairness of this shitty world stop me.

I had to go through a seriously dark period to get to this mindset, but I did get through it. I wasn’t hopeful or optimistic while I was dealing with it, but I kept going anyway.

My kinda homeless isn’t as bad as it gets. I got a decent car and a decent job, just no bed.

My boss is actually Latvian with a pretty strong accent. She struggles with some stuff, but we communicate fine.

Anyway, I guess I’ve got some strength to me. It’s not something I started with though. You just pick it up on your way through hard times. I’m sure you can find your own strength too.

I bounce around a few friends place and live in my car a bit. I have a full time job. I can park in their lot overnight and get water there during the day. So I’ve got most of the situation figured out. The address thing is gonna be an issue eventually. Actually, it’ll be a big one. Oh well.

Ed Zitron’s podcast “Better Offline” recently talked about this. There is a small tech community called the Rationalists who believe AI super intelligence is inevitable and it will either accelerate humanity to new heights or kill off the species. These rationalists are actually a very prominent faction within tech and the AI industry. Apparently the language used within top AI firms is largely about the immense danger posed by AI super intelligence if any other group or company were to achieve it first. This creates an echo chamber that makes the people in the industry kind of lose their mind and misinterpret the capability of LLMs.

Everyone outside that faction recognizes that LLMs are just unreliable cloud software with limited use cases and that there’s no evidence LLMs could actually lead to any kind of intelligence.

Edit: Please, someone stop me from commenting on an AI post next time I’m tempted. I’m so tired of people replying, arguing with opinions I don’t have, based entirely around a hypothetical technology that doesn’t exist yet. LLMs make slop. Thats it. They hacked a company after weeks of 100s of instances being run, using old exploits published online. San Francisco will be underwater from climate change before LLMs can do anything more.

I’d use a teleporter with no hesitation. What’s important is my memories and sense of self, not the actual meat it’s in. I could find out I’m a copy of myself right now and not be bothered.

Ask them about it. That’s a wild title and it’s a well worn book. There’s gotta be some interesting stories behind it.

Aside from adult items, it would be my collection of 400 keys all on a bunch of different connected key rings or maybe my rum bottle full of used needles.

I live kind of in the metro NY area and I go to the city a lot. I’ve only ever heard “I got on the line” or “Are you on the line?” otherwise it would be “get in line” or “I’m in line for …”

Overall though, that article feels really dated. The famous NYC accent has been fading in recent years. I haven’t heard many of the features listed in that article and more still I’ve only heard from old people.

When I was 13, a 13 year old friend and I went to a convention where my friend got an under 12 child’s ticket and I got a 15+ chaperone ticket. Now both of us get carded at bars and we’re pushing 30. People aren’t good at guessing ages.

So what? There would be persistent awareness. The new me would remember everything up to the old me’s death and keep living. I’m fine with that.

Uh oh, I didn’t realize I ordered one. My dom is gonna be pissed.

Take estrogen.

Well I imagined we were talking about an imaginary sci-fi technology. Obviously it would be more complicated and possibly at risk for some kind of manipulation in real life. If I were presented a teleporter where the only fault is a philosophical question about being a copy, then I don’t mind being a copy and my original self dying.

I’ve had my iPhone 11 for 7 years. I have no strong desire for a new one either. I just need to replace the battery on this one and it should be good a for a few more years.

Ideally I’d want the fat in my butt and chest and not my around my liver lol

I plan to, but my next consult isn’t until like october or november. I don’t have a pcp

I do eat breakfast, but I don’t take lunches at work. So I have an egg sandwich and a coffee in the morning and then try to eat as much as I can from 4p-11p.

Damn, looks great! I’m actually so addicted to thrifting. I go to like 3 stores a week and I’m constantly scrolling depop.