I just have to actually celebrate myself, my friend let slip at dinner that my ex has a girlfriend and has for a while and I'm not sad or hurt about it at all. Which is HUGE. I'm so fucking proud of the progress I've made emotionally.

Thank you for the kind words earlier Friends, I'm feeling a lot more okay now. Sometimes my brain gets carried away.

I did things that cheered me up and that really helped, made some cheesy potato cake thingys and planted one of my propagated monsteras in a pot and changed the pot of another plant and that all made me feel better. I'll have to relax tonight and put a face mask on and do some graphic design/drawing so I can get my Lizzo T-shirt and/or bag done in time.

In hindsight, I really wish I'd just posted this yesterday:

All of my best responses are well after I've already sent them.

I just wanted to reiterate how nice it is to not be feeling hurt/pain about my break up anymore, I'm sure there will be moments but I'm just feeling so overall positive and happy. I'm feeling ready to put myself out there and start dating again and just go with the flow.

I'm super proud of how much healing and learning I've done in the last year, I've changed so much and definitely for the better. I've made more friends, I work hard to prioritise my social life and to keep those relationships going so that an actual relationship is just a supplement to my life.

I'm excited to get my adhd assessment done and my diagnosis soon and to keep learning. I'll head back to therapy once I have my tax return and just keep trying to make some positive steps to be my best.

I forgot to post after my return post but I'm here, I've got all good news, I started a polymer clay jewellery business - I haven't had any sales yet but I'll get there eventually. I'm also really enjoying/experiencing the benefits of ADHD medication, it's wonderful having a clear brain for a good chunk of the day.

I got my Lizzo drawing printed on a jumper. I'm super happy with it and will be curious to see how the T-shirt and bag versions turn out whenever they arrive!

Image description: black jumper with rainbow illustrations of US Singer Lizzo on it, a flute, and the name Lizzo repeated 6 or 7 times.

I've started an 8 week challenge for fitness and healthy eating and fuck me, the amount of admin involved is exhausting. I've been so enthusiastic but the more I've had to prepare for it food wise, the more my enthusiasm fades. I'll still go to the group training session tonight but I'm genuinely already exhausted.

Spent so much of the day exhausted, I decided just to use my seated ticket and I'm super happy with it, the view is great.

Going to both of Lizzos concerts were the perfect end to a what has been a fucking hard year, they encapsulated every bit of happiness, heartbreak, pain, learning, and growth I've had through this time and reminded me of how much I love her and myself.

I am officially diagnosed with ADHD combined type! After waiting so long for my appointment and feeling so anxious that I was somehow wrong about it, it's a huge relief. I get to try medication and looking forward to the bonus weightloss that comes from it lol

Hello Friends! I just realised I haven't posted or logged in a much longer period of time than I thought. I hope you're all well! For once I'm not here to vent or complain. Lol.

Stopped the car at the zebra crossing by South Melbourne Market and who happens to cross in front of the car but my ex, that ex, the one who never spoke to me again. My initial thought was WTF and then my heart did that pain thing it does and then I got teary eyed and then I felt completely okay about it. It didn't give me this burning desire to talk to her, it didn't make me miss her, it just reminded me of the pain she caused me and then I moved on. Also to note I was not driving. lol. Thank god.

Sometimes I feel like an absolute void of nothingness, no one truly cares for ME, no one reaches out via message, I hang out with friends sometimes, but we're not super close. I just feel alone.

I finished my Lizzo masterpiece!! After many many hours of drawing.

Edit: Pictured is a drawing of US Singer Lizzo in the colours of the rainbow (red, yellow, pink, green, purple, orange and blue) with the text version to the name Lizzo in the colours of the rainbow stacked on top of each other. At the bottom of the design there is a lightly bronzed flute that was also drawn.

Visited Co-bake space to buy cakes by Reece Hignell from MasterChef Australia, they were delicious!!! Wasn't cheap but I considered it both worth it and a one off chance to enjoy his baking.

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I got given the news that I am receiving a pay rise and I am absolutely stoked, it made me feel exponentially more valued.

I've decided to go at a semi normal time and ask for a ticket swap and if I don't get it, no big deal, I tried. Lol. Either way, I'll be seeing Lizzo a second time ❤️ if I can't give her the bag, then I'll keep it for myself and use it.

Imagine, you're sitting on the couch watching the block, desperately pinning the pleats into the skirt you made too big and you go to fart, only to straight up shart. This is me currently.

I had a really proud moment today where I actually demonstrated to myself that I am capable of my new role. I really do need to stop doubting myself.

Can't sleep, too nervous for the inevitable and unfortunate No result of the referendum.