Had a manager go on about all the collab and help he got when starting out at the company and how important the connections are etc.

Someone else pointed out that if you can’t get help using MS teams then you have a problem. Plus it’s 2023 - no need to stuck to old ways of work.

When I’m in the office, I’m wearing headphones to try and block the noise from the random hot desking people from random parts of the business all talking loudly on teams calls. The business has multiple physical locations in various states hence the teams calls. There’s no chatting or “water cooler” talk.

I cannot work in these conditions nor do I want to spend 2 hours each way commuting to waste my day like this. It’s my personal hell.

Shout out to anyone having a shitty day today due to the “family” issues or loss. It’s been hard to avoid.

Did my Coles shop online. At checkout-“enter cake for a free mud cake”

Type in cake.

Sorry offer not available.

Fuck you even more than usual, Coles.

When you admit you need help as you’re struggling but get shamed and invalidated. I’ll just go back to hiding inside my head. Reasons why I isolate myself.

Hospital parking fees 🤬

Nobody is going there for fun.

This year just keeps giving. Got some bad news at doc today and being sent for scan on Monday. Currently panicking about cancer.

Sally capp and her vested interest in bringing spending back into the city. Why people should be forced to pay for transport and give up time with family etc to buy coffee is behind me.

Why don’t the local mayors in the suburbs fight back to support their local businesses who are thriving due to wfh?

Why do people assume that everyone has friends or family that can help them out with things. I have a 90yo grandma, an estranged family, and a few casual friends that aren’t close enough to help out.

Why is life such a bitch all the time, I seem to be playing on “fuck you” level of difficulty.

I just went to a doc appointment. We discussed migraines. An hour later I’m on instagram and I get a migraine medication ad. I had not googled anything about migraines or headaches or anything vaguely related. I’ve been working in tech for over 20 years now, and I’m now convinced it is all listening. It’s not just a paranoia any more.

Have had breakfast yet because I am being held down by my cat…..

Ever been so depressed that the only thing keeping you alive is your cat?….I imagine her sad face waiting for me to get home and never getting home….

Shit is fucked.

In the movie “As good as it gets”, Melvin pays for a doctor for Carols kid. I’d like to be rich enough to pay for a doctor who listens to me about my health problems and helps find actual solutions.

The “sorry can’t help, ” stuff from lazy doctors who don’t care is just bullshit. (Private and bulk bill). Worse is the “never seen that before” don’t know from specialists.

I just want some sleep without my nose blocking up and leaving me with headaches, constant exhaustion etc. let alone the other disabling, life fucking up stuff. But I look fine on the outside.

Why is it that there’s always something out of balance. If it’s not work life then it’s health or money. When they are all broken then it feels hopeless

Looked at ndis as I need help with disability. The sheer amount of doctors letters, assessments etc required is going to be insane, stressful and probably costly into the thousands. Then there’s the long wait times (over 6 months to get a response) Hardly accessible. Im struggling so hard to stay employed - wfh was so great for disabled people and now the return to office mandates has my job being threatened. It has no actual physical requirement (tech) but they insist that going into the office for “connection” with the internal team (who is across multiple states anyway ) is a “mandatory business requirement”.

Fucking joke at the expense of my health declining even further.

NDIS application is starting. My doc says it’s really difficult to get approved but we will try anyway. I’m still working full time so dsp isn’t a thing and I want to keep working and feel like a normal person. Just need some help and ideally work to stop forcing mandatory office days and actually be inclusive instead of just pretending to. Sucks being bedridden so much.

This week’s shit weather is brought to you by my annual leave. Not. Happy. Jan.

Anyone feel like they could disappear and nobody would notice?

Expert on abc radio saying nucular. Sorry, can’t take him seriously.

Sitting in a city office, after having spent 2 hours getting here. Wearing a with mask, listening to all the coughing around me. Doing work that I could do just fine at home. Wearing headphones with music on to block out the noise from all the other people on teams meetings, so no “culture and collaboration” is happening. How has the world come to this absolute bullshit of “return to office, Covid is over, back to having no life”?

Train - coughing ppl

Work - person sits at the desk next to me coughing and snotting.

Dentist - kid with chesty cough in waiting room

Ffs. I’m masked up because I have health issues.