I was so lucky that my mother spent her last days at a nursing home seemingly unaffected by corporate greed. The staff were kind, caring and informative. I was alone with her when she passed and waited a minute or so before hitting the button to get a nurse to check on her. The Nurse Manager told me it is not uncommon for something like this to happen, so she would check Mom's vitals multiple times over fifteen minutes and then call her doctor and the funeral home for confirmation before she would be officially pronounced dead.

Hi. I'm just another internet rando but I've been where you are and slowly crawled back out. When your health is suddenly taken from you it's so overwhelming, and just getting through each day is a lot to handle. You need to focus on your mental and physical health like it's your full-time job right now. Taking care of someone else is definitely too much to ask of you. I'm glad you're doing your best to get different housing because it seems sorely needed.

Have you talked with the social worker or therapist aboutyour suidical thoughts? If not, I would definitely advise you to do that as soon as you can, and definitely check out the pinned resources in our community for anything that might work for you.

If you're lonely and would like to work on that, you can increase your contact with people online to help you pass the time. Try to find whatever little things that bring you joy (books, naps, hobbies you can tolerate right now) and maybe try a podcast you find relaxing. There are good days ahead of you. It may not feel like it, but not every day will feel this bad. Your brain and body are in a tailspin right now and you will find your way.

I'm sorry I don't have any magic advice to help your situation--I think if you could move a lot would change for you, but I wanted you to know that this stranger on the internet cares about you. You can come back to this community any time to vent. That's what we're here for.

You definitely need to be wary of new people when you're feeling like this, and I'm glad you're keeping the people who can help you up to date on your symptoms. Migraine pain is the worst, especially when you're trying to use digital things like phones or computers (I have to turn the brightness way down on things and still limit the time I spend on them when I have one, anyway). Getting out with your friends was good for your soul, so I'm sure it was worth it in the end.

I'm glad it's helping for you to come here and talk with us. Keep on checking in whenever you can tolerate it. We are here for you.

Thank you for adding flair to your post.

We here at the /mentalhealth community disagree with the idea that there is nothing special about you. Your need is just as great as every other person and you can't play that game with yourself because it's dangerous. Please continue ranting here all you want if it makes you feel better to get some of your frustrations out. We understand and this is what we are here for. We're glad you came here and talked with us and gave us a chance to help you out.

However we obviously can't help you in a crisis, and if you are in real danger of harming yourself, please call 988 or make use of the options available for actively suicidal people that you are already aware of. I assure you that there are people around you whose life would be worse if you followed through with any plans for suicide. Please read this post for more helpful info.