Not really, but kind of. I was always interested in women and men, but realizing i was trans helped me understand what i was feeling towards women was jealousy not sexual attraction. Unfortunately being attracted to men as a transwoman is kind of a nasty catch22 as my hands were too big for the straight men and the gay men really just wanted a twink. (generalizing here, not all men, etc etc)

So I became mostly aromanic, satisfied with just like... flings with guys online. soft catfishing for quick e-sex, and then I met my girlfriend, who makes me feel like I've never loved anyone except her. And we lived happily ever after

ER employee here, multi-hour wait times aren't caused by people without insurance seeking care, they're caused by admitted patients taking up all the ER rooms. The ER would function great even with pretty substantial patient volumes because many of the primary-care tier complaints can be seen and discharged relatively quickly, many not needing anything more than a closet to speak in private for 10 minutes and imaging or prescription. In the hospital I work at, and every hospital in the city, and probably every hospital in your city, the floor that holds the most non-ER patients is the ER.

The reason for this is because shit runs downhill, and there's not enough inpatient infrastructure because it's expensive during the summer to have excess beds not in use just to have a reserve for flu season. This matters because even nonprofit hospitals are run to make money to pay our CEO ~50x more than the lowest paid employee, which- while a respectable ratio compared to most- is wholly unnecessary. nobody needs a multimillion a year paycheck except perhaps pediatric surgeons with a good bedside manner.

ive been off social media except reddit, discord, and lemmy for a decade, and i was genuinely confused at labeling that girl "fat". (and the guy, too).

i think im healing. i needed that hope today

Hey, if hips are something you want, you need to start HRT as soon as possible. Once your bones are set they don't really change, only fat distribution (which does help, as well as the workout tips mentioned by the other commentator.

It's been my experience (at 30) that estrogen doesn't change my body, only the directions it follows when I work to change it, so I very heavily concur with the workout advice!

any chance you smoke weed to help with that depression? Cannabinoid hyperemesis might be worth looking into

I'm 5'8, plenty of men aren't interested in women as tall as they are.

i think this metaphor is close, but not quite. being honest, nice, friendly is like the bread of the sandwich, not the pickles. you can't have a sandwich without the bread- but very occasionally, sometimes, you wanna just reach in and just grab some meat and cheese

I just.. tried a bunch. Alexandra was my first, used it for about 6 months online. Didn't like it. Too harsh. Then I tried Sarah, felt better, new test group.. but wasn't right. Unsure why, just wasn't me. Tried Amanda, and that was it.

The downside of this is you have to make disposable friend groups. I made mine on old internet kink websites, a few focused on like.. pre-written "teases". It kept things fairly transactional and anonymous so there wasn't any relationships to break, just another content creator disappearing

I like the way it sounds, and i like the pun. Can't bully me if I've already made a joke about it. As a bonus, I can sign my initials and have it be both deadname and realname depending on the angle

I'm amanda :)

commenting to save for later, maybe I'll post some stuff. this is one of the last things i hate about myself so it'd be nice to finally squash it

Selfishly?

Golden Sun 2: One of my favorite game series's growing up, and the first time I experienced a "good" plot twist.

Knights of the Old Republic: Talk about good plot twists, I rented this game from blockbuster once and spent years thinking it was a fever dream.

Pokemon Emerald: Pokemon Crystal is the first game that let me play as a girl, but ruby/sapphire is really my generation.

Baldur's Gate 3: Met my gf playing this, 1000 hours in, all coop with her.

Monster Hunter World: Met my best friend here, 2000 hours in, and basically infinitely replayable in a way that Elden Ring isn't

one of my (very shy) discord friends posted an accidental face reveal from a photo of their dog, reflected in the pupil.

New phones have absurdly good cameras

This is absolutely something I struggled with. My field is healthcare, and I felt and continue to feel presenting masculine is the safest option. Even if not traditionally masculine (i have my nails done a really pretty purpleblack right now, and am known to braid some of my coworkers hair), the ability to just... exist unbothered as a man is extremely useful.

a few of them know me as trans, but it's also nice to be a bit choosy.

The advantage of being unable to pass as a cis woman means it's still possible to retain your male privilege, and while i'd happily make that trade- it's not something in my power to do right now.

My goals primarily are to feel comfortable and safe in my own skin. Amongst my friends, and even like... bystanders in the grocery store, that means being a woman. Amongst my coworkers however, i unfortunately feel more comfortable as a man; for me.. the dysphoria isn't as bad as the bigotry. But it's a decision you'll have to make for yourself

thanks, lena! nice to meet you too!

yes! it's wild getting it from guys who are already taller than me. I'm lucky enough to have not had the experience of looking for a partner on dating apps(unless discord counts?), but i hear all the time about how absurdly superficial they are

muted

i feel like it's more a diagnosis of last resort than something to jump to first off, especially if it doesn't really line up with your usage, but I'm not sure what else it could be if the doctors don't think those meds/combination of meds would cause nausea.

I'm on 6mg estradiol daily, 100spiro for 2 years, and new progesterone, with no nausea. Never been on the other stuff you mentioned tho

i use "bi" specifically because i feel like it excludes androgyny since im attracted to gender binary presentation, trans inclusive, as long as you're convincingly masculine or feminine in your presentation. not a hard line exclusion ofc but it is my preference and so it's what i use

government by the people, right?

visually impaired (not blind(yet)) from keratoconus, the number of people who say "oh im blind without my glasses too" drives me up the wall. nothing to do but pretend to commiserate.