@Roflmasterbigpimp well, I am not experienced in helping depressed people, but my naive idea would be, that you might be better if you try to program sth. That could give you a Sense of achievement.
I really enjoined doing advent of code last year, because you have easy but still challenging code puzzles and it has the social aspect of comparing and exchanging ideas with your friends, which is really fun.
If I missed the point of your sadness, maybe just know, that your friends are there for you