A dog taught me about crosswalk accessibility. I was walking someone's blind dog, and we were waiting at the crosswalk. When the opposite side of the street started chirping when the light changed (as it always does), the dog started crossing the street toward the source of the sound before I ever indicated it was time to move. I'd never thought much about the chirping sound until then.

This sketch is funny and everything, but I feel this part in my fucking soul.

Just consider whether you'll be able to tolerate doing the work when you're not going to be the one in charge of deciding what you work on.

This is my main apprehension when it comes to pursuing a CS career. I already have an undergrad CS degree. I got it right before LLMs were even a thing. I know I'm rusty, but I have pretty strong fundamentals. I was already working in IT as a student so I stuck with that and all the jobs I've had since college have been fixing broken shit for someone else. Part of me would like to make software engineer money, but I hear employed programmers talk about the soul-crushing monotony of staring down a bottomless ticket queue and burning up their passion for creativity on fixing annoying issues with software that someone else wants them to build and I unfortunately already know EXACTLY what they're talking about. I'm so fucking sick of ticket queues. I understand the utility. I get why they exist, but goddamn it's such a sisyphian way to organize a workflow. It never feels like I'm actually making progress.

I've been unemployed for the past few months and I've just started getting back into coding for fun and for the first time in forever I can feel what drew me to programming to begin with. Every time I had the "what's your major?" discussion with a fellow student, I'd explain that the reason I was pursuing programming is because I like making stuff, and programming seemed like an obvious way to seriously level-up the kinds of stuff I can make. I usually got weird looks for this answer because I suppose I was expected to just say "money."

Using the skills I've developed for something I'm passionate about and applying them to a goal that I'm either completely indifferent to or actually opposed to does not sound like a fulfilling career to me. If I spent all day on an annoying software bug, I'm not going to want to keep doing software after I get home. I already know this because I didn't want to do troubleshooting when I got home after spending my whole day doing that. I had all-but completely stopped making things for fun because the hurdles I'd run into in my hobby felt too much like work. I'm only just getting back into it now because I haven't been working for a while.

Part of me feels like I should at least try programming as a career, but I have a terrible feeling that I already know what it will do to my mental health.

It's a good platform, but it absolutely does not cover the same breadth of content as YouTube. To me, Nebula feels a bit more like old-school discovery channel before it got all crappy. I pay for Nebula, but I still watch 99% of my online video on YouTube. Of the range of different types of content I watch on YouTube, I'd say Nebula covers about 5% of it. It is pretty nice for when a creator is dealing with copyright bullshit on YouTube, but I can still watch the video on Nebula.

At any point that I'm about to make a post online and I realize that the emotional energy required to continue engaging is more than I'm willing to commit to this particular discussion, I just bail. No reply, no downvote, just peace out. It's really not worth it.

This controversy over tesseract finally got me to do a bit more reading to understand how federation actually works and what a frontend does. Now I understand why everyone is so pissed.

The email metaphor has been the most useful to me in understanding how this works. Someone tell me if I've got this right. Basically, you have your lemmy account, which belongs to the instance you created it on, like how a gmail account belongs to Google. You can use whatever frontend you like to view your feed, just like you could use Outlook to view your Gmail account. Tesseract is a frontend, kinda like Outlook in the metaphor. In theory, a frontend should deliver to you everything that would appear on your lemmy instance no matter where you access it from, but now the tesseract frontend is basically making content filtering decisions about what users, topics, and instances you have access to. It would be like if your Outlook app suddenly decided "ew, you shouldn't be using your Gmail to talk to any of those yahoo mail people, and also it's now forbidden to use Outlook to discuss seahorses."

So all the posts, users, and instances are still there, it's just that the dev of your frontend decided that you shouldn't interact with those users or discuss those topics anymore. Worse still, they surreptitiously tried to hide all of this new filtering among other features that are needed for spam and whatnot, leading people to think something was actually broken.

Do I have that right?

My favorite example of this.

Hint: George Lucas has stated in the most plain-English unambiguous terms that the empire does in fact represent US imperialism in A New Hope. It's in a director chat interview thing with with James Cameron if you feel like searching it up.

I have a bad feeling that apple is going to release a pair of smart glasses and all of the social momentum of discouraging wearing these things will be lost overnight.

I like it much better with the last 2 frames included.

As an American, I don't understand how anyone can be proud of our "founding principles" without also being deeply ashamed of our failure to live up to them. It fucking hurts to live with this much hypocrisy, and I'm not the one getting snatched off the fucking street. Better just keep absorbing as much info as possible lest I feel guilty for ignoring it...

Here's an episode of the podcast Citations Needed all about how much Mike Rowe sucks.

It feels like people are upset about running into users who are politically left-leaning... on federated social media.

That's like being upset about encountering queer people in the arts, or chuds in the weightlifting space, or conservatives at the gun range. What the hell did you expect?

Total net worth. No hidden assets or secret bank accounts. Every last cent that a person is worth. Also, it gets brighter/more noticeable whenever you're advocating for something that increases your net worth.

I feel like this would be the only way to get a lot of people to connect the dots.

One time I was eating at an Indian restaurant that had a 5-star heat scale, and then "Indian hot" which was just another level beyond the scale. I ordered 3 star heat and my buddy ordered "Indian hot." The waitress confirmed 3 times that was what he wanted (we're white).

I was impressed that my friend was managing his meal pretty well so I asked if I could try it to compare. It wasn't any hotter than mine. I'm sure the chef took one look at him and was like "I'm not remaking this dish when that white boy can't eat what he ordered." Not like my friend would've been a dick about it or demanded another dish, but yeah I doubt he could've handled the heat level he asked for. In the end, the food was great and my buddy didn't feel cheated and didn't destroy his guts.

Kinda sounds like the imperialism has turned inward now. We should have a term for that...

As I gain a better understanding of how federated social media works, I just find it even more confusing. This dude appointed himself batman of lemmy, but he's just a single dev of a single frontend. Don't most instances have multiple frontends? Even if a secret block list was the key to getting lemmy to finally go mainstream (it's not), implementing it at a frontend level is simultaneously both way too wide and way too small of a net. If tesseract was the only way anyone could access lemmy, maybe a secret block list could actually change the winds, but it's such a small slice of the fediverse. It's like if batman was only beating up jaywalkers and was like "You're welcome, Gotham. The city is saved."

What was the point of any of it? Someone was inevitably going to discover it was happening. There were so many people on the block list. Was he just going to personally defend against the ranks of people he found annoying forever? Keep adding more and more regex as the list grows to multiple thousands of users?They're still on the platform, dude. It's just one filter on one frontend. What the hell are you trying to accomplish?

Wherever this thing ends up, it will be begging for the most obvious bit of vandalism ever. One little hole turns it from a "touching tribute" into a real-life kirkpost.

I play video games, but my "identity" as a "gamer" is not important enough to me to care about defending the label.

If someone says "gamers are trash," you either know exactly the type of person they're talking about, or you are the type of person they're taking about.

I have no desire to argue "well I'm a gamer and I'm not like those people" because I don't give a damn about the "sanctity" of such an arbitrary label. Also, not only are there tons of toxic gamers who are guilty of all the -isms, but there are also a lot of gamers who are all-to-eager to minimize the shitty actions of the former group and I don't want to be associated with them either.

"That's just how online gaming is" or "You think that's bad? You should've seen call of duty lobbies back in the day" are common refrains from people who may not be hyper-toxic themselves, but they're completely adjusted to bigotry being the status quo for the hobby and they don't even see it as a problem to be corrected.

Also, I'm white. Seeing people criticize racism in gamer culture and jumping to the defense of the label as if that's the problem feels very on brand for the way that white people tend to prioritize things. The bigotry is a much bigger problem than my "right" to call myself a gamer without the extra baggage. It feels a bit like still trying to defend twitter. I play video games, but yes, gamers are trash.

"No CGI" is primarily dishonest marketing hype that actively minimizes the work of talented artists. Yes, they had a puppeteer steering a plastic ball around for Project Hail Mary, but they also replaced 100% of the practical ball with CG. Especially at a time when people are so opposed to AI because it devalues human art, I think it's important to be aware of the other ways we devalue art that have nothing to do with AI.

This fantastic YouTube series done by a career FX artist does an excellent job of dispelling the marketing hype and recalibrating the conversation around CGI in movies.