My friend is hosting a lunch at her house this weekend and everyone is bringing their children and partners. As the only childless person in the group, is it bad that I want to bail on this because...I don't want to hang out with kids this weekend?

He really should have announced it in his North Face jacket and starting with "at 11.59 pm today..." just for old times sake

Was hearing stories of people 'queuing for 10 hours' for Taylor Swift tickets only to realise they meant somehow queuing online for that time? You know *back in my day * I camped outside the ticketek office overnight to get Nine Inch Nails concert tickets - ah how times change!

You know you must be getting older when you're excited you stocked up on toothpaste that was on special at the chemist...(PSA: Oral B is only $2.49 at Richmond Traders Priceline today)

You know you've really hit adulthood when you get a new vacuum cleaner and immediately start vacuuming with excitement to see how much dust it can take (answer - a lot!)

It's warm! Time to wash EVERYTHING

What a clusterfuck of a week. Desperate times call for desperate measures so I'm finishing off this already-opened bottle of wine that's been sitting in my kitchen since last weekend. In the words of Bernard Black - "the older the wine is...the gooder it is..."

One of my friends just had her second baby and all my other friends are jumping up straightaway to visit her as soon as possible. Is it wrong that I...just don't care? I mean I'm glad she has had a safe birth, the baby is healthy etc, I sent congratulations and contributed to a baby gift but...I'm sorry i'm not chomping at the bit to come and visit and check-in.

Someone on instagram posted 'ten weeks till Christmas' and now I am filled with anxiety over how fast things are going D:

Finally took the plunge and made the decision to block an overbearing friend on social media (he was spamming me with memes, getting angry if I didn't respond, declaring that he would leave me alone forever, then spamming me with memes the next day). I guess I felt a bit bad for him as I know he doesn't have many friends, which is why I never cut him off completely...but he's really worn that down (and I'm really worn down by this as well).

I'm a fairly heavy gym-goer and feel pretty good with my deadlifting as of late, but I still have issues with my mobility when squatting. I keep listing to one side which is preventing me from progressing. My PT has been recommending mobility warm ups/exercises to do before my set...but I'm also just sooo lazy when it comes to doing them so I just...never do them. I should try and fit them in before I go to the gym so I don't have to worry about them once I get there.

IMAX tickets for Oppenheimer acquired! The last time I was IMAX I was with a bunch of mates watching Inception and I remember it being such an awesome experience so hopefully it's just as good (or better) this time around.

Sitting in my Kmart oodie, drinking negroni gin, watching old episodes of the Crystal Maze and ruminating on what my life has become...this is a whole mood.

Sigh. Got the real inferior feels today. My co-worker somehow managed to interview and land a new job within two weeks whereas meanwhile I've been applying and interviewing for roles in the same areas over the last few months with no success and feedback ranging from 'we hired internally', 'too much experience' and 'not enough experience'...ugh maybe I just suck at my job.

Wow it just got crazy dark here in Richmond with some ominous clouds! Makes me wanna sleeeeeep

Bit of a disappointing work today. On Friday I messed up a spreadsheet by simply copying and pasting things wrong. However, I didn't pick up on it until late today, when I had already done a heap of work on it (and spent the whole time wondering why it was throwing so many errors). I really felt like I dropped a notch in my manager's eyes, as I had to bring them in to work with me to fix the sheet, not to mention other people who I showed the report to who picked up on the same thing. Ever since my interview for this role, i've been approached by people in different departments saying 'they've heard a lot of good things about me' - apparently someone on the panel has spread word that I'm some fantastic contributor to the role, and now I feel like that reputation has been tarnished because I couldn't figure out a very simple mistake. Sigh. Wish I could just undo the last few days.

Someone just jogged my memory about what an awesome song "Without You I'm Nothing" by Placebo was. That whole album was (is?) still so so good. Then I remembered they had a version with David Bowie which is even better!

Incoming pity party: made it to the interview stage of a role that I really felt aligned so well with my skillset only to be told today that again, I was the runner up and there was just someone better. I really had to fight the urge not to full-on cry on the phone when they told me because I was so devastated. I was basically manifesting in my head my future with this job all week (probably not the best idea) because I thought I was such a good candidate and thought the interview went well. It's very rare for these roles to appear that suit my experience so I really felt almost like it was made for me but now all that hope is....gone. The only feedback they could give was just it went to someone who had different organizational skills so now I feel like maybe I just suck at what I do if there's people out there who can do it better.

The op shop was still open! managed to score a Gorman linen jumpsuit for $13 - I love looking up the things I buy from op-shops to see how much it cost originally and this one was $250!

Ugh. Went for an interview on Friday morning and have that sinking feeling I didn't get the job. They said they would get back to me early this week and so far i've heard nothing. Feel like if they were keen they would be reaching out by now to do reference checks etc. I actually prepped hard for this - wrote out STAR answers, verbally practiced questions and went in and gave some new angles to my work examples that were different from all my other failed interviews. Was still bloody nervous though and I think it showed in my voice - maybe that didn't sit right with them? Sigh. I seem to be getting applications into the interview stage but just can't seem to seal the deal.