miisha, you clearly have a bad case of bipolar disorder and you need to talk to a doctor about it. euphoric and depressed thoughts oscillate within you at a scary intensity. these lows aren't normal. please get some mood-stabilizing meds.

miisha please stay with us, the world is a better place with you here

as has been said it sounds like you could have BPD, seeking help for this should be your top priority right now. you deserve to live your life as the woman youve become

Hi Miisha, I'm sorry to hear you're having a difficult time right now. You are not a man sweetheart.

Please take some time to contact a crisis hotline to talk with someone. Life doesn't have to be so painful. You need to talk with someone.

you're one of the few women I look up to and relate to. I've felt the same way granted it waxes and wanes and I know how hard it is to even consider such a decision, to do or not to do, to make it stop or hope it gets better.

please don't go Miisha. we love you.

Please don't. [end it]

(i will be contacting you on matrix, pls accept my PM request this time)

Miisha no. Bad girl do not do that.

This thread is crazy silent.

Look, I’m not anything but I just want to say sometimes I just decided to hang out to see what would happen.

Someone in the southern hemisphere loves you

Go to the hospital if you must but just… don’t off yourself yet.

Girl, you are not a man, I've seen men, and I've seen you. Sure, not in person, but through pictures you've posted (with this and one previous account) and I would never think you were a man walking past you.

You didn't "start too late", you started when you were willing and able to. I am in my 30s, only 4 months in to hrt. I feel like I waited too long, but I had no access when I was a teenager and wanted to be a girl. By the time I had access, I had hidden myself back into a closet. This year I was willing and able, and nobody is going to stop me.

One thing I catch myself doing is comparing my own body with (often cis) women of a body type that has been idealized by modern standards. Modern standards that we keep reminding ourselves are unrealistic. And as AMAB, I believe we feel a different kind of pressure, both from others and ourselves, to fit into that type.

I will most likely look like a more masculine combination of my mother and sister, minus a bunch of weight. I am as okay with that as I can be, but we'll see how things go.

I know cis women who lean into their natural masculine look, I know cis men who lean into their feminine look. For now I'm somewhere in between. I basically look like I did last year, just with a little extra weight due to my chest getting a little bigger, and trying to lean into the feminine side of things. I flop back and forth as to whether it's working. Sometimes at work I catch myself in a mirror and think "hey I DO look girly" and others I avoid looking in the mirrors entirely. Good days and bad days.

I don't have fixes, and I'm sorry for that. But I do know I'm happier to have you on lemmy, I always enjoy your posts even if I don't comment.

(mental health side note I will give BPD a +1, my spouse has it and my sister has it, your highs and lows are certainly indications, pls seek medical advice and get better 😙)

This is the first time i've seen or heard of you. Just reading through your posts, you sound and look like a beautiful human. The world is cruel right now. It is, and I know that you know that more than anyone. And yet... I can see that even you see the good sides of life.

I know you can't see yourself in a few months or even years right now. I've been there before. I know it's so stupid to say that things will get better. Nobody can ever guarantee that. But they do. They have and they will. I wish I could give you a hug right now.

The world needs you, Miisha. I know you might not be able to feel it right now, but there's many many people who love you and care about you, even if you can't see it right now...

Stay strong, you lovely being. Misty

Don't do that. We all love you here.

Please don't die you're really valuable and pretty

Hey, hold on a moment!

Our world is really hard to live in. Even harder if you don’t fit into an easy-to-accept mold. Being attractive, having the same cookie cutter-beliefs as others, all that stuff. But today is just one day. You’re feeling as low as you’ve felt in a long time, I am guessing. You won’t always feel this way. Your life still has times of joy and love available in it. And if you were to take your own life, you would probably very much regret it as you were dying.

I had cancer a while back. I have experienced a lot of depression, disappointment, and heartache as well, and before that, I felt similar to the way you are. It didn’t make sense to keep going. And I sometimes contemplated doing the same thing.

After that diagnosis, I found myself being so incredibly sad that my life might soon be over. There were things that right now one would perceive as small and meaningless that became moments that brought me to tears. A simple drive down the highway with my partner was one of the biggest ones. Just an evening drive back home, the same drive we’d made hundreds if not thousands of times.

Life has changed for me since then. I know now that suicide is never going to be a solution for me. And that has been a gift of an experience that I hope I can pass to you.

It’s hard out there. Be kind to yourself and to others.

I've been considering to cut me quiete severly recently, little sister. I was lucky to have people care me. Let us care for you. We can't help you phisically, but we are all with you. And you told me you'd watch someone for me 👉👈 and I wish we can bond more. I use arch btw

Pleaaasee Miisha, you aren't a man, and I say that with complete certainty. Please stay, I really hope you can stay and get through this. I've sent a request on matrix if you want to talk.

You don't have to hope for the future. It's enough to just be curious.

please don't go :c

You are loved and appreciated by many people. If you feel there's something wrong with you, that is society's fault, not yours. You've done nothing wrong and you deserve to live your life to the fullest. I hope we can see more of you here in the future. Your life matters

You are loved and appreciated by many people. If you feel there's something wrong with you, that is society's fault, not yours. You've done nothing wrong and you deserve to live your life to the fullest. I hope we can see more of you here in the future. Your life matters

Your beautiful, valid and worth it. You are a real princess, a queen, a beautiful daughter and a hot girl next door. You can fix your body, and you can have a wonderful life. So things in your life require more work, don't be disheartened by this but view it with a source of pride. You earned being happy, not everyone can rightfully say that. Love you, Miisha and I hope you experience more joy and wonder wherever you go!

You are loved and appreciated by many people. If you feel there's something wrong with you, that is society's fault, not yours. You've done nothing wrong and you deserve to live your life to the fullest. I hope we can see more of you here in the future. Your life matters

Miish... I promise you'll be okay if you power through the bad. You're a lot better than you think. Much cuter too. Please be kind to yourself...

Glad you're getting help, Miisha. We love you and we're glad you're here.

When you're in the middle of the bad feelings, try to remember they won't last forever 🫂❤️ The cycle always comes around again and you'll most likely feel better in the morning. Also mood stabilizers would help.